Dark Times
September 24th came and went like nothing but it was so much…. This week, as a matter of fact these next few weeks, last year was a very impactful time for me. I went through some life changing events and learned much of myself but everything ended badly on Saturday, October 2nd, 2010 at around 3am. Details will be omitted but for those who don’t know what happened, I changed, a lot, I think for the better but for some reason, today, a year later, I still feel the sting I felt for a while after October 3, 2010 at 5:42PM. It sucks that my mind is still traumatized and there is nothing I can do about it, I wish I could correct it but I don’t think it would be good for me to do so. My mind is all over the place and I find myself walking through the city out of it, in an otherwise weird way. I hate this somber mood I have had the last few days specially since sometimes I think it isn’t important. And well, really it isn’t but it meant a whole lot to me, too much if you ask anyone. I do however think that I learned a valuable lesson, and not just the “I read about it and know I learned it” type of learning but the hard way, the real way of learning- through experience. I learned that not everything we want for ourselves is good for us. Sounds simple to the simple mind but mine has long left that state of being. This post is more for me to vent as I have no one here to whom I entrust said occurrences with so I’ve you’ve taken time to read this post and are as confused as you should be, I am sorry I wasted your time but thank you for your interest.








